Saturday, December 22, 2012
4 Nights Before Christmas
'Twas four nights before Christmas and all through the mall, people dashed and scurried to make sure that they got it all.
Seriously. As of 7 pm, the city of Ottawa had received 28 centimeters of snow and it's still (now 10:50 pm) snowing! Despite the storm, there are people everywhere in the mall. One might say, well yes, but you're there too! I am only here because my darling husband is working until 11:30 (the mall is open until 11) and I need to pick him up. I thought that I would come a little bit early so that I could enjoy a steamed eggnog (eggnog latte minus the coffee) and to ensure that I wouldn't have to wait out in the cold parking garage.
I really am amazed at the number of people who are floating around in this place. In fact, a former co-worker from Carleton Place just walked past me! I wasn't thrilled with the prospect of driving across the city; I can guarantee that there is no way that I would have driven in from a neighbouring community! I understand that there are only 4 shopping days (including today) left before Christmas, but if I were not already done my shopping, I would not have made a specific trip out today. I think that I would have rearranged my plans and made a point of coming tomorrow or Sunday. In fact, I would have hauled my butt out of bed early to be here for 8 am when all of the stores open! That’s saying a lot because there are very few reasons for which I am willing to get out of bed early on a Saturday but avoiding a crowd is definitely one of them. The worst part about all of these people, from an employee standpoint (and I’ve been there often enough to know) is that they never leave by the time that the mall is officially closed. They take their sweet ass time and doddle about because they are too self-centered to think of anyone but themselves. The employees couldn’t possibly want to go home so that they might have some time with their families! Even during a normal night this is the usual, it’s not specific to the Christmas season and it is something that I have never understood. For the love of Pete, no one stands around your place of work at the end of your day and just wanders about, so please, don’t do it to the hard-working retail workers!
Aside from my general dismay with the last minute Christmas shopper, I am so excited for Christmas! I really can’t wait to get in the car and head home to mom and dad’s because in my opinion, there really is no place like home for the holidays!!!!
My shopping is done, my wrapping is done (aside from a few objects that need to go into bags but that will occur at my parents place because they have a major bag surplus) and I have all of the ingredients that I need to make my AWESOME Christmas morning French Toast bake! Hubby still has to wrap the gifts that he has bought me but that will be done by tomorrow night and then all that is left on Sunday is to pack the car and pick him up after work. Then we are south-eastward bound to the booming metropolis of Cornwall!!! Fortunately we have an awesome neighbour who will be checking into our apartment a few times a day just to make sure that all is well and to give us a little piece of mind while we are away. I will have to remember a little thank you gift for her :)
I don’t know that I will be back before Christmas so I am going to say it now. I wish all of you a very MERRY CHRISTMAS! Please be sure that it is a safe one and that you are able to enjoy the love and laughter of family and friends at some point during the Christmas season.
Wednesday, December 19, 2012
Something's gotta give
September 6th, that was the last day that I worked in a "full-time" job! Yes I've been able to collect EI but the fact of the matter is that's no way to live! It barely manages to pay the bills and then there's nothing left over for anything. I have applied to dozens of teaching positions and have had a few interviews but to no avail. I am hoping to return to the government in January since the outlook in the world of teaching looks VERY bleak. Don't get me wrong, it's still my goal and dream to become a teacher but right now I need to make a living and pay off some debts because we are barely keeping our head above water right now. I simply want to work to make a living that will allow me to know that all of our monthly bills can be paid on time and eventually pay off what we owe so that more of what is made can stay with us and maybe even start a savings account.
I don't want to gripe too much because it is Christmas and it is a season to be joyful and thankful for all that we do have. On that note, I am very thankful for my family and friends. I have a wonderful, loving husband who would give me everything my heart desires if money were not an issue. He is my soul-mate and I would not trade him for the world. I have many wonderful friends for whom I am very thankful. There are 2 in particular that I am very thankful to have in my life because they make me very happy and they fill some of my time most weeks with happiness and laughter when my hubby is at work. They are both very thoughtful and know me very well. I am comfortable around both of them and it doesn't matter what we are doing I am happy to be with them. I thank the good Lord for them on a regular basis and I wish them nothing more than true happiness.
I am going to sign off for now, but expect a Christmas blog in the coming days as there is lots of time being spent alone while my hubby works in the next few days so I will have lots of time to reflect!
Take care,
Stephanee
I don't want to gripe too much because it is Christmas and it is a season to be joyful and thankful for all that we do have. On that note, I am very thankful for my family and friends. I have a wonderful, loving husband who would give me everything my heart desires if money were not an issue. He is my soul-mate and I would not trade him for the world. I have many wonderful friends for whom I am very thankful. There are 2 in particular that I am very thankful to have in my life because they make me very happy and they fill some of my time most weeks with happiness and laughter when my hubby is at work. They are both very thoughtful and know me very well. I am comfortable around both of them and it doesn't matter what we are doing I am happy to be with them. I thank the good Lord for them on a regular basis and I wish them nothing more than true happiness.
I am going to sign off for now, but expect a Christmas blog in the coming days as there is lots of time being spent alone while my hubby works in the next few days so I will have lots of time to reflect!
Take care,
Stephanee
Monday, December 10, 2012
Today I asked for and received some feedback on an interview that I had some weeks ago. The basic point was try to be a little less me and a little more robot-like. I understand that I need to be more professional and answer the questions more factually with fewer "stories" and anecdotes but I really don't know how to be less like me. I've always known that I walk the walk so much better than I talk the talk but I'm not sure how to change myself to meet the expectatons.
I was also told that it would be a good idea to buy and wear a suit to the next interview...I've always thought that I appear professional but apparently not professional enough.
Please don't get me wrong, I really appreciate and value the feedback that I received from this particular individual because I know that she has my best interest at heart but it was really hard to hear some of the things that she had to say. I know that these are changes that I have to make if I want to succeed in my next interview but it is very difficult to accept that I need to make these changes. I have always thought that being me and being true to myself was the best way to accomplish my goals and dreams, but apparently I need to figure out a way to follow this person's advice and embrace what may be the best way to my make said goals and dreams come true.
At least now I have a good understanding of what has been going wrong all of these years when I have had interview after interview and have never been successful.
For now I just need to think about all of this and try to wrap my head around all of it and then I need to devise a plan to succeed. Maybe this is the definitive sign that I have been asking for from the Good Lord above.
I was also told that it would be a good idea to buy and wear a suit to the next interview...I've always thought that I appear professional but apparently not professional enough.
Please don't get me wrong, I really appreciate and value the feedback that I received from this particular individual because I know that she has my best interest at heart but it was really hard to hear some of the things that she had to say. I know that these are changes that I have to make if I want to succeed in my next interview but it is very difficult to accept that I need to make these changes. I have always thought that being me and being true to myself was the best way to accomplish my goals and dreams, but apparently I need to figure out a way to follow this person's advice and embrace what may be the best way to my make said goals and dreams come true.
At least now I have a good understanding of what has been going wrong all of these years when I have had interview after interview and have never been successful.
For now I just need to think about all of this and try to wrap my head around all of it and then I need to devise a plan to succeed. Maybe this is the definitive sign that I have been asking for from the Good Lord above.
Thursday, November 29, 2012
Teachers...take a deeper look
Argh...the looming rotating teacher's strike here in Ontario has brought to light some of my biggest pet peeves. I should be sleeping right now, however, my mind is racing wondering how people can be so naive.
"Teachers are so lucky, they get the summers and so much other time off" - One of my favourite comments. To these people I say, please find me a teacher who actually takes the whole summer off. If you can find one that does, he or she is only in it for the money and is a VERY rare breed. Most teachers are in the classroom cleaning up for at least a day or two, if not the entire week, after school lets out for the summer and then return with at least a week before school classes begin in the fall. Two years ago when I was covering someone's maternity leave, I was in the school only a couple of days before the year started because that was the earliest I could get into the school. As an "occasional teacher" (meaning that I am not permanent) I only get paid for the days that I work and I only get paid for the school day proper, which in this case meant that I spent several days working for free. We as teachers are responsible for making the classrooms what they are and the school as welcoming as possible for the children. During this year in question I spent an average of 40 minutes before the day started and 90 minutes after all the kids had gone home planning and preparing for the coming days and weeks and marking and grading various activities. Most nights, even after I got home, I would spend another hour or so working. My Christmas break consisted of the week between Christmas and New Years, I spent the rest working on new units of study that needed to be prepared for when we got back to school in January. March break...a couple of days rest but also some more planning for when we returned. During school I gave up one lunch hour a week to help with the Primary choir. Doesn't sound like much, but since I'm not much on sports it was the best I could do.
Last year, I worked at that same school, only this time my hours were Monday to Friday 8:10-9:40. I was paid a quarter of day each day. Why you might ask did I accept this position? Because in the previous year, I had fallen in love with the staff, the school community and the students! Most days, I didn't leave the building until after noon hour because I was planning and prepping new units and modifying to meet student needs. My favourite example from last year, of time spent working outside regular school hours, is my Christmas craft. I was teaching Visual Arts to a class of 14 boys and 5 girls and wanted to do something that that could all proudly take home. I saw an example of a wire hanger wreath and was sold. You simply take a wire hanger and bend it into a circle. Then you tie 5inch long and 1 inch wide pieces of festive fabric around the hanger. I was approved to buy the fabric and then spent 4 hours cutting strips!!!! This was not a requirement, it's what I chose to do for my students so that they could be proud of their project.
So no, teachers do not really get that much time off.
As for comments about being well paid and great sick benefits and an awesome pension...well...yes, we are paid well, however, would you really want your children be educated by someone who feels that they aren't being well enough compensated to deal with the crap that comes from some kids which results in everyone suffering? I sure wouldn't. Teachers work hard for their money. Often they are not only teachers but they must act as mediator, confident, parent, health care provider, custodian, decorator and various other positions...but it's all in a day's work.
Sick days...well yes, I think we deserve 20 per year...teachers spend more waking hours with your children then you do on a week day. If your child is carrying a bug, teachers are the ones who are most likely going to get it. If you figure that the average school population is 350 kids (and that's probably really low) then the way I see it is that on any given day a teacher is exposed to at least 300 sets of germs! So yes, we NEED those sick days. Should they be bankable...again I think so because I think in the long run it will benefit the students. With the currently layout of 10 days that disappear at the end of the school year, I can almost guarantee that your children will see their teacher a lot less in the month of June than they would have if sick days hand not been touched. The way I see it is leave the number of days and the banking of them as it was. At the end of a teacher's career those days simply disappear. No paying out, no using them in a large amount at the end of the career.
With regards to the teachers' pension being FANTASTIC that's because it is. It has been very well managed and invested with great success. I really don't think that we should be looked down on for this. However, to put thing into perspective, we also pay a fairly hefty amount into the pension. Right now I am only supply teaching (you would think that someone would hire me after 8 years of this!) but on my last cheque which was for about $800 before taxes and deductions, almost $150 went to my pension. I strongly believe that we deserve everything we get from our pension.
Should teachers ever strike...no, I don't believe so...however, I also don't believe that their right to strike should have ever been taken away. I didn't hear\see the government telling the school boards that they could not lock teachers out, but that was being considered at one point very recently. Very simply put, it is time to put the kids first but without taking away things that have been agreed upon in past negotiations. I understand that things need to change financially, but maybe the government should have considered freezing their own wages first!!!
I think my dad said it best years ago when I was completing my placement "I never truly realized just how much work teachers do until now. You are always working on something". I just wish that the general public could see how hard and long we work and then maybe they would not judge us quite so harshly.
I know that this is not very well written and rambly and scattered, but please give me a break; it's 12:35 am, I'm tired but I simply needed to get all of this out of my brain....now maybe I'll be able to sleep.
Good night
"Teachers are so lucky, they get the summers and so much other time off" - One of my favourite comments. To these people I say, please find me a teacher who actually takes the whole summer off. If you can find one that does, he or she is only in it for the money and is a VERY rare breed. Most teachers are in the classroom cleaning up for at least a day or two, if not the entire week, after school lets out for the summer and then return with at least a week before school classes begin in the fall. Two years ago when I was covering someone's maternity leave, I was in the school only a couple of days before the year started because that was the earliest I could get into the school. As an "occasional teacher" (meaning that I am not permanent) I only get paid for the days that I work and I only get paid for the school day proper, which in this case meant that I spent several days working for free. We as teachers are responsible for making the classrooms what they are and the school as welcoming as possible for the children. During this year in question I spent an average of 40 minutes before the day started and 90 minutes after all the kids had gone home planning and preparing for the coming days and weeks and marking and grading various activities. Most nights, even after I got home, I would spend another hour or so working. My Christmas break consisted of the week between Christmas and New Years, I spent the rest working on new units of study that needed to be prepared for when we got back to school in January. March break...a couple of days rest but also some more planning for when we returned. During school I gave up one lunch hour a week to help with the Primary choir. Doesn't sound like much, but since I'm not much on sports it was the best I could do.
Last year, I worked at that same school, only this time my hours were Monday to Friday 8:10-9:40. I was paid a quarter of day each day. Why you might ask did I accept this position? Because in the previous year, I had fallen in love with the staff, the school community and the students! Most days, I didn't leave the building until after noon hour because I was planning and prepping new units and modifying to meet student needs. My favourite example from last year, of time spent working outside regular school hours, is my Christmas craft. I was teaching Visual Arts to a class of 14 boys and 5 girls and wanted to do something that that could all proudly take home. I saw an example of a wire hanger wreath and was sold. You simply take a wire hanger and bend it into a circle. Then you tie 5inch long and 1 inch wide pieces of festive fabric around the hanger. I was approved to buy the fabric and then spent 4 hours cutting strips!!!! This was not a requirement, it's what I chose to do for my students so that they could be proud of their project.
So no, teachers do not really get that much time off.
As for comments about being well paid and great sick benefits and an awesome pension...well...yes, we are paid well, however, would you really want your children be educated by someone who feels that they aren't being well enough compensated to deal with the crap that comes from some kids which results in everyone suffering? I sure wouldn't. Teachers work hard for their money. Often they are not only teachers but they must act as mediator, confident, parent, health care provider, custodian, decorator and various other positions...but it's all in a day's work.
Sick days...well yes, I think we deserve 20 per year...teachers spend more waking hours with your children then you do on a week day. If your child is carrying a bug, teachers are the ones who are most likely going to get it. If you figure that the average school population is 350 kids (and that's probably really low) then the way I see it is that on any given day a teacher is exposed to at least 300 sets of germs! So yes, we NEED those sick days. Should they be bankable...again I think so because I think in the long run it will benefit the students. With the currently layout of 10 days that disappear at the end of the school year, I can almost guarantee that your children will see their teacher a lot less in the month of June than they would have if sick days hand not been touched. The way I see it is leave the number of days and the banking of them as it was. At the end of a teacher's career those days simply disappear. No paying out, no using them in a large amount at the end of the career.
With regards to the teachers' pension being FANTASTIC that's because it is. It has been very well managed and invested with great success. I really don't think that we should be looked down on for this. However, to put thing into perspective, we also pay a fairly hefty amount into the pension. Right now I am only supply teaching (you would think that someone would hire me after 8 years of this!) but on my last cheque which was for about $800 before taxes and deductions, almost $150 went to my pension. I strongly believe that we deserve everything we get from our pension.
Should teachers ever strike...no, I don't believe so...however, I also don't believe that their right to strike should have ever been taken away. I didn't hear\see the government telling the school boards that they could not lock teachers out, but that was being considered at one point very recently. Very simply put, it is time to put the kids first but without taking away things that have been agreed upon in past negotiations. I understand that things need to change financially, but maybe the government should have considered freezing their own wages first!!!
I think my dad said it best years ago when I was completing my placement "I never truly realized just how much work teachers do until now. You are always working on something". I just wish that the general public could see how hard and long we work and then maybe they would not judge us quite so harshly.
I know that this is not very well written and rambly and scattered, but please give me a break; it's 12:35 am, I'm tired but I simply needed to get all of this out of my brain....now maybe I'll be able to sleep.
Good night
Monday, November 19, 2012
Sitting here wondering what to write about and my mind keeps going back to "Black Friday" that is being hosted here in Ottawa. I definitely won't be attending most of them, however, I am intrigued by the sale that will be held at Bayshore. For a large part this is only because I have to drive my hubby to work for 6am! I figure that if I'm there anyway I might as well see if I can get a couple of good deals! So far there is only one that I am interested in but I am sure that there will be more added as the week goes on.
This however, brings me to a question that has been driving me crazy...why are we so driven, as a society, to cave to retail pressure?!?! Yes fine, I'm caving but fact is this year I need all of the budgetary help I can get so I will brave the world of insanity and try to land a couple of great bargains! But, what is it that drives us to do this other than to find the almighty bargain? Also, why is this crazy Black Friday such a draw and why do we as Canadians feel the need to get in on it and participate up here to? It's not like it's a holiday here in Canada and we don't have any crazy deals after our Thanksgiving? Do retailers in the States think that people won't start their Christmas shopping if there aren't crazy deals available? Are they under the impression that people won't know that Christmas is only a month away? That no one can read a calendar or do the math?
I grew up in a border town and I don't ever remember hearing about "Black Friday" back in the day! Did people cross-border shop? Sure! In our family it was only to go to stores that we didn't have, like Payless (yep, I'm that old!). Others would go to buy products that were less expensive than in Canada such as dairy products and various baking products.
I still can't help but wonder what the draw is? I would not be attending if I wasn't driving my hubby in because quite frankly, there are very few things that are important enough to get me out of bed that early, even on a weekday!
Anyone else planning some serious shopping this weekend?
This however, brings me to a question that has been driving me crazy...why are we so driven, as a society, to cave to retail pressure?!?! Yes fine, I'm caving but fact is this year I need all of the budgetary help I can get so I will brave the world of insanity and try to land a couple of great bargains! But, what is it that drives us to do this other than to find the almighty bargain? Also, why is this crazy Black Friday such a draw and why do we as Canadians feel the need to get in on it and participate up here to? It's not like it's a holiday here in Canada and we don't have any crazy deals after our Thanksgiving? Do retailers in the States think that people won't start their Christmas shopping if there aren't crazy deals available? Are they under the impression that people won't know that Christmas is only a month away? That no one can read a calendar or do the math?
I grew up in a border town and I don't ever remember hearing about "Black Friday" back in the day! Did people cross-border shop? Sure! In our family it was only to go to stores that we didn't have, like Payless (yep, I'm that old!). Others would go to buy products that were less expensive than in Canada such as dairy products and various baking products.
I still can't help but wonder what the draw is? I would not be attending if I wasn't driving my hubby in because quite frankly, there are very few things that are important enough to get me out of bed that early, even on a weekday!
Anyone else planning some serious shopping this weekend?
Friday, October 26, 2012
Oh Baby!!!
Today I spend the majority of the day with my favourite 3 month old...Hanna!
This beautiful bundle belongs to my best friend and I really don't think that she could be any sweeter if she tried.
Miss Hanna was bright eyed and bushy tailed from the moment I arrived. Her momma cleaned her bum shortly after my arrival, we played on the floor a little, snuggled, she ate (a few times), the big people had some lunch and chatted all the while. She is just absolutely adorable. She didn't nap, much to her mother's chagrin, but remained happy and giggly the whole time that I was visiting (6 whole hours).
Don't get me wrong, I also thoroughly enjoyed the time that I got to spend with my friend as it had been at least a month since the last time we got together. Today we chatted and chatted, covering a myriad of subjects that affect both of our lives on different levels. It was also wonderful to watch her be a mom to little miss Hanna. I always knew that she would be a good mom but I never could have imagined how much of a natural she is. She is by far, one of the best and most relaxed first time moms I have ever seen! If, and that's a big if, baby fusses mom doesn't get all stressed out she simply tries to calm her and settle her and is quite willing to see if someone else can work their magic and calm her. There are times when she gets a little fed up, but she knows enough to put baby down and let her cry while mom takes a few minutes to breathe...there are many moms that never manage to figure that one out!
I do have to say that the day spent with a beautiful, happy, smiling baby did make me REALLY want one...but that's nothing new, I have wanted one for many, many years. However, I am very happy for my friend because she is a wonderful mom with a wonderful little girl. It's not my time to become a mom but I know that one day it is something that I will be able to share with my friend and I will be able to ask her for advice :)
I can't wait for the next day that I am able to spend with these great girls...love you ♥
This beautiful bundle belongs to my best friend and I really don't think that she could be any sweeter if she tried.
Miss Hanna was bright eyed and bushy tailed from the moment I arrived. Her momma cleaned her bum shortly after my arrival, we played on the floor a little, snuggled, she ate (a few times), the big people had some lunch and chatted all the while. She is just absolutely adorable. She didn't nap, much to her mother's chagrin, but remained happy and giggly the whole time that I was visiting (6 whole hours).
Don't get me wrong, I also thoroughly enjoyed the time that I got to spend with my friend as it had been at least a month since the last time we got together. Today we chatted and chatted, covering a myriad of subjects that affect both of our lives on different levels. It was also wonderful to watch her be a mom to little miss Hanna. I always knew that she would be a good mom but I never could have imagined how much of a natural she is. She is by far, one of the best and most relaxed first time moms I have ever seen! If, and that's a big if, baby fusses mom doesn't get all stressed out she simply tries to calm her and settle her and is quite willing to see if someone else can work their magic and calm her. There are times when she gets a little fed up, but she knows enough to put baby down and let her cry while mom takes a few minutes to breathe...there are many moms that never manage to figure that one out!
I do have to say that the day spent with a beautiful, happy, smiling baby did make me REALLY want one...but that's nothing new, I have wanted one for many, many years. However, I am very happy for my friend because she is a wonderful mom with a wonderful little girl. It's not my time to become a mom but I know that one day it is something that I will be able to share with my friend and I will be able to ask her for advice :)
I can't wait for the next day that I am able to spend with these great girls...love you ♥
Monday, October 22, 2012
A Gift of Faith
Consider yourself warned, I am about to talk faith and spirituality.
Because I teach in a Catholic School Board, all of my interviews ask how my own personal journey in Catholicism have prepared me for teaching in a Catholic School. I always link this question to my 2 very devoute Catholic grandmothers. Some of my favourite memories of my paternal grandmother (Gram) are of all of us (6 kids, 7 adults) staying in the original family cottage which often found us (the kids) sleeping in the same room as my grandmother. (There were several sets of bunkbeds and some of us crashed together as we were little and quite young) As we would begin to drift off the only sounds to be heard were that of the water lapping on the shore, the pendulum on big clock in the living room tic-tocking away, and Gram whispering her prayers. She would kneel all curled up in a little ball with her head just about on the bed in front of her and away she would go. To this day, I have no idea what prayers she was saying or if she was just chatting with God, nor for how long she would pray because I always fell asleep before she was done.
On the other hand, my Nana was much less demonstrative. She attended mass weekly (with the occasional weekday mass thrown in for good measure) and we would say Grace before meals but that was kind of where it ended. I don't think I ever truly understood the strength of her relationship with God until my grandfather passed away. Yes she was sad, but there was a peacefulness about her that I simply didn't understand at the time. I saw that peacefulness again when she was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. She had already made up her mind long before her official diagnosis, whatever would be would be...that was God's plan for her.
Over the years, as I have gotten older, I have tried to embrace this Faith that was so prominently displayed for me over the years. In the very recent past, as I have attended more interviews and applied for more positions I have tried to put it in God's hands and simply let whatever will be, be. I want that same sort of relationship that my grandmothers' had. Each night before I go to sleep I have a conversation with God and thank him for all of the wonderful things he has given me throughout the years and I ask him to guide me and help me to discover that path that he has planned for me. I try to attend mass on a weekly basis (although this has not been my forte as of late) and I have even begun to read and meditate on the daily mass readings on a semi-regular basis. I do not, as of yet, have my own regular seat as my Nana did but I hope to one day find that wonderful place of Trust, Respect and Faith that both she and Gram so beautifully showed me.
Thank you Nana and Gram! I am so Blessed to have had you both to show me what true Faith looks like. I hope that I can follow in your footsteps and enjoy the same sort of beautiful relationship with God that you both enjoyed.
God Bless!
Steph
Because I teach in a Catholic School Board, all of my interviews ask how my own personal journey in Catholicism have prepared me for teaching in a Catholic School. I always link this question to my 2 very devoute Catholic grandmothers. Some of my favourite memories of my paternal grandmother (Gram) are of all of us (6 kids, 7 adults) staying in the original family cottage which often found us (the kids) sleeping in the same room as my grandmother. (There were several sets of bunkbeds and some of us crashed together as we were little and quite young) As we would begin to drift off the only sounds to be heard were that of the water lapping on the shore, the pendulum on big clock in the living room tic-tocking away, and Gram whispering her prayers. She would kneel all curled up in a little ball with her head just about on the bed in front of her and away she would go. To this day, I have no idea what prayers she was saying or if she was just chatting with God, nor for how long she would pray because I always fell asleep before she was done.
On the other hand, my Nana was much less demonstrative. She attended mass weekly (with the occasional weekday mass thrown in for good measure) and we would say Grace before meals but that was kind of where it ended. I don't think I ever truly understood the strength of her relationship with God until my grandfather passed away. Yes she was sad, but there was a peacefulness about her that I simply didn't understand at the time. I saw that peacefulness again when she was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. She had already made up her mind long before her official diagnosis, whatever would be would be...that was God's plan for her.
Over the years, as I have gotten older, I have tried to embrace this Faith that was so prominently displayed for me over the years. In the very recent past, as I have attended more interviews and applied for more positions I have tried to put it in God's hands and simply let whatever will be, be. I want that same sort of relationship that my grandmothers' had. Each night before I go to sleep I have a conversation with God and thank him for all of the wonderful things he has given me throughout the years and I ask him to guide me and help me to discover that path that he has planned for me. I try to attend mass on a weekly basis (although this has not been my forte as of late) and I have even begun to read and meditate on the daily mass readings on a semi-regular basis. I do not, as of yet, have my own regular seat as my Nana did but I hope to one day find that wonderful place of Trust, Respect and Faith that both she and Gram so beautifully showed me.
Thank you Nana and Gram! I am so Blessed to have had you both to show me what true Faith looks like. I hope that I can follow in your footsteps and enjoy the same sort of beautiful relationship with God that you both enjoyed.
God Bless!
Steph
It's been a while
So, it's been a long time since I have written anything and I have realized that I've been missing it. I thought that I would start with a life update.
On October 10th I had my gallbladder removed. Who would ever have thought that 4 teeny tiny little holes could cause so much discomfort! I say discomfort because about the only real pain I had was the day of the surgery and it was due to the gas that gets pumped into the abdomen to allow for room to work. I'm told that they try really hard to remove most of it, but inevitably you end up with some remaining in your tummy. This was painful! The worst part was that there is little to nothing that helps to take it away other than time because the gas is in areas that anti-gas meds don't touch. It's so invasive my shoulders were actually sore becasue of it!
My recovery was and continues to be quite good. I spent my first week at the cottage with my parents so that my husband wouldn't have to worry about me being home alone. Mom and Dad were really good to help me in and out of the chair that I chose to sit in; they helped me make up the couch on the first night because it hurt to lay in bed; they reached for things up high that I simply couldn't stretch to reach; they even tied my shoes for me...who put my feet so far away??? I really couldn't have asked for more :) Each day, starting on the 11th, I went for a short walk and lengthened it a little at a time each day. What better place to enjoy the fall than our beautiful cottage!!!
After a week I returned home and my hubby took over. He has taken very good care of me and enabled me to get back into things slowly.
I'm still not fully healed but I am definately well on my way to being completely pain (and steri-strip) free. I, quite frankly, can't wait to wear pants that have buttons and zippers! Because the gallbladder comes out through your bellybutton I haven't been able to wear anything with a button because it digs into my bellybutton. I have discovered that my choices are very limited when it comes to these types of clothing items!
Other than the surgery, I have been hunting for work. I have had 2 interviews over the last week for 3 different positions at the same school. I am hoping to be successful because I really want to work for the wonderful woman that is the principal. She was the VP at the school that I was at for the past 2 years and I simply adore her. She is helpful, fair, and quite simply a wonderful person. This is her first principalship and I would love to be part of that journey with her. Only time will tell but I really should know by tomorrow if I have landed one of the positions. It really would be wonderful to be working again. I am getting tired of not having money and of supply teaching. I really don't like not knowing if I will be working in the morning nor how far I will have to travel if I am working.
Oh well, que sera, sera!
Steph
On October 10th I had my gallbladder removed. Who would ever have thought that 4 teeny tiny little holes could cause so much discomfort! I say discomfort because about the only real pain I had was the day of the surgery and it was due to the gas that gets pumped into the abdomen to allow for room to work. I'm told that they try really hard to remove most of it, but inevitably you end up with some remaining in your tummy. This was painful! The worst part was that there is little to nothing that helps to take it away other than time because the gas is in areas that anti-gas meds don't touch. It's so invasive my shoulders were actually sore becasue of it!
My recovery was and continues to be quite good. I spent my first week at the cottage with my parents so that my husband wouldn't have to worry about me being home alone. Mom and Dad were really good to help me in and out of the chair that I chose to sit in; they helped me make up the couch on the first night because it hurt to lay in bed; they reached for things up high that I simply couldn't stretch to reach; they even tied my shoes for me...who put my feet so far away??? I really couldn't have asked for more :) Each day, starting on the 11th, I went for a short walk and lengthened it a little at a time each day. What better place to enjoy the fall than our beautiful cottage!!!
After a week I returned home and my hubby took over. He has taken very good care of me and enabled me to get back into things slowly.
I'm still not fully healed but I am definately well on my way to being completely pain (and steri-strip) free. I, quite frankly, can't wait to wear pants that have buttons and zippers! Because the gallbladder comes out through your bellybutton I haven't been able to wear anything with a button because it digs into my bellybutton. I have discovered that my choices are very limited when it comes to these types of clothing items!
Other than the surgery, I have been hunting for work. I have had 2 interviews over the last week for 3 different positions at the same school. I am hoping to be successful because I really want to work for the wonderful woman that is the principal. She was the VP at the school that I was at for the past 2 years and I simply adore her. She is helpful, fair, and quite simply a wonderful person. This is her first principalship and I would love to be part of that journey with her. Only time will tell but I really should know by tomorrow if I have landed one of the positions. It really would be wonderful to be working again. I am getting tired of not having money and of supply teaching. I really don't like not knowing if I will be working in the morning nor how far I will have to travel if I am working.
Oh well, que sera, sera!
Steph
Tuesday, September 11, 2012
Mixed Feelings
Today I had an interview for a position that I REALLY want! I managed to multi-task a half-day of supply teaching along with the interview thanks to the help of a former colleague. I initially was pleased with my interview and even think that I did an okay job with the written question (never my preferred portion) but then I saw the next candidate. It was a lovely lady whom I had the pleasure of working with 2 years ago and about the only person who could completely crush my confidence.
The position in an FSL position and it just so happens that her first language is French. I know that my French abilities are good and I consider myself to be completely bilingual, however, when it comes down to it, I know that she will have had no problem with the French portion of the interview...no grammar mistakes like I tend to make when I am nervous.
I don't want her to not have a position this year, I just don't want her to have THIS job! I love the school and staff so much and I actually feel like I am missing part of me by not being there right now.
In an attempt to endear myself, I spent part of the afternoon with the person who I would be replacing, giving her a hand with a very busy grade 1/2 class.
Like I said, I don't wish the girl who is also up for the job any ill will, I just really want this job! I really don't have much else to look forward to right now and I am actually starting to feel desperate which really sucks. I have been working as a supply teacher for 8 and a half years and I really think that it's my turn to work for a full year!
I'm really sorry to sound all whiny, but sometime soon, something's gotta give!!!
The position in an FSL position and it just so happens that her first language is French. I know that my French abilities are good and I consider myself to be completely bilingual, however, when it comes down to it, I know that she will have had no problem with the French portion of the interview...no grammar mistakes like I tend to make when I am nervous.
I don't want her to not have a position this year, I just don't want her to have THIS job! I love the school and staff so much and I actually feel like I am missing part of me by not being there right now.
In an attempt to endear myself, I spent part of the afternoon with the person who I would be replacing, giving her a hand with a very busy grade 1/2 class.
Like I said, I don't wish the girl who is also up for the job any ill will, I just really want this job! I really don't have much else to look forward to right now and I am actually starting to feel desperate which really sucks. I have been working as a supply teacher for 8 and a half years and I really think that it's my turn to work for a full year!
I'm really sorry to sound all whiny, but sometime soon, something's gotta give!!!
Sunday, September 2, 2012
Old Crows
Fifteen years ago this weekend I met two of my best friends...Sharon and Sarah!
Oh the fun we had during Frosh week at Carleton University!!! I don't think that I will ever forget Canal games, Shinerama, "Moist", or Mont Cascades! And that was just the beginning. That first year was full of Tempest Tuesday's at the Bree's, DJ Saturdays, Fenn Pubs and malfunctioning fire alarms!!! There was lots of drama to be dealt with and a couple of roommate changes, but in the end I really think that everything worked out for the best!
Over the past 15 years there have been both happy and sad tears. Some moving away but in the end returning to the city where it all started.
Next year, when Carleton has their football team back, I really think that we should get as many people from that first year back together and go to the Panda game...let's face it...if we have a team and Ottawa U has a team, there has to be a Panda game!!! This time around though, I do believe that we get to be Old Crows...who knew that one day that would be a good thing!
All said, I simply want to acknowledge how blessed I feel to have such awesome people in my life. I'm not entirely sure if 15 years ago I would have believed that we would still be super close this many years later! I am tickled pink that this is how everything worked out :) Thank you both for being absolutely awesome people! I love you both and I am looking forward to what the next 15 years have in store ♥
Oh the fun we had during Frosh week at Carleton University!!! I don't think that I will ever forget Canal games, Shinerama, "Moist", or Mont Cascades! And that was just the beginning. That first year was full of Tempest Tuesday's at the Bree's, DJ Saturdays, Fenn Pubs and malfunctioning fire alarms!!! There was lots of drama to be dealt with and a couple of roommate changes, but in the end I really think that everything worked out for the best!
Over the past 15 years there have been both happy and sad tears. Some moving away but in the end returning to the city where it all started.
Next year, when Carleton has their football team back, I really think that we should get as many people from that first year back together and go to the Panda game...let's face it...if we have a team and Ottawa U has a team, there has to be a Panda game!!! This time around though, I do believe that we get to be Old Crows...who knew that one day that would be a good thing!
All said, I simply want to acknowledge how blessed I feel to have such awesome people in my life. I'm not entirely sure if 15 years ago I would have believed that we would still be super close this many years later! I am tickled pink that this is how everything worked out :) Thank you both for being absolutely awesome people! I love you both and I am looking forward to what the next 15 years have in store ♥
Thursday, August 30, 2012
Surprises
Isn't it funny how our hearts and brains work?
My last day working for Citizenship and Immigration Canada is coming sooner rather than later and I find myself much more glum than I would have expected.
Over the last 4 months I have met some wonderful people and made some great new friends. I have learned lots about the immigration system in Canada which has been very interesting. I have learned that my friend Sarah is AMAZING at multi-tasking and rather miraculously manages to keep the entire office running smoothly.
Sure there are some people I won't miss as I have spent the last couple of months simply tolerating...I have thought on several occasions that our education system may actually be failing us! I am amazed that some people were even hired as they are barely capable of speaking either of our official languages, but at least they can do the work~sort of.
I have laughed and cried because I was laughing so hard (fizzants, what exactly are fizzants?) several times over. I have felt frustrated, appreciated, and accomplished all in the same day, all the while pondering if it really does all have to come to an end?
Please don't get me wrong, I cannot wait to get back to teaching (I really miss my little monkeys) but if I ever really need to choose a different career, I really hope that I will be blessed with fun, intelligent co-workers like those with whom I am currently working :)
I guess it must be time for bed, I am having a very difficult time keeping my eyes open and the typos abound!
Just before I go, I am going to get all "religious". I feel very blessed to have found this wonderful job and I thank God for Sarah and her uncanny ability to somehow make things happen ♥
My last day working for Citizenship and Immigration Canada is coming sooner rather than later and I find myself much more glum than I would have expected.
Over the last 4 months I have met some wonderful people and made some great new friends. I have learned lots about the immigration system in Canada which has been very interesting. I have learned that my friend Sarah is AMAZING at multi-tasking and rather miraculously manages to keep the entire office running smoothly.
Sure there are some people I won't miss as I have spent the last couple of months simply tolerating...I have thought on several occasions that our education system may actually be failing us! I am amazed that some people were even hired as they are barely capable of speaking either of our official languages, but at least they can do the work~sort of.
I have laughed and cried because I was laughing so hard (fizzants, what exactly are fizzants?) several times over. I have felt frustrated, appreciated, and accomplished all in the same day, all the while pondering if it really does all have to come to an end?
Please don't get me wrong, I cannot wait to get back to teaching (I really miss my little monkeys) but if I ever really need to choose a different career, I really hope that I will be blessed with fun, intelligent co-workers like those with whom I am currently working :)
I guess it must be time for bed, I am having a very difficult time keeping my eyes open and the typos abound!
Just before I go, I am going to get all "religious". I feel very blessed to have found this wonderful job and I thank God for Sarah and her uncanny ability to somehow make things happen ♥
Sunday, August 19, 2012
Thanks for the Memories
Today I find myself thinking about my past, and how the events and people in it have managed to shape who I am.
I recently found out that someone I went to elementary school with was seriously hurt in an accident, but is thankfully recovering well. This got me to thinking about how much life has changed over the last 25+ years.
Back in school, I was that kid that wasn't a member of the "cool" group, but I also wasn't one of the kids that just didn't fit in. I was simply me. I got along with pretty much everyone, respected my classmates, and simply just wanted to be liked. In reality, I haven't come to far from that last point, I still want to be liked by all because I like to think that I'm a pretty nice person who's worth liking :)
I find myself thinking about how funny it is, that even the events that seem to be little at the time, make for the greatest memories. School trips, specifically to Ecole de neige, Ecole Verte, and Quebec City, hold some of the best memories for me. I remember my tallest classmate riding a tricycle around the common area of the building during our Ecole Verte trip; boys hanging out dorm windows in Quebec City to talk to the girls on the floor above; and "the monster" in the woods at Ecole de Neige. These are some of my favourite memories and the people who helped to create them will always hold a special place in my heart. I really don't think that they have any idea how important they are and that I truly care about what happens to them, even today.
I have come to realize over the years that the people of the past are what have shaped the person that I am today, and for that I am grateful because I really like who I am. So, to all of the people whose paths have crossed with mine, Thank you :)
I recently found out that someone I went to elementary school with was seriously hurt in an accident, but is thankfully recovering well. This got me to thinking about how much life has changed over the last 25+ years.
Back in school, I was that kid that wasn't a member of the "cool" group, but I also wasn't one of the kids that just didn't fit in. I was simply me. I got along with pretty much everyone, respected my classmates, and simply just wanted to be liked. In reality, I haven't come to far from that last point, I still want to be liked by all because I like to think that I'm a pretty nice person who's worth liking :)
I find myself thinking about how funny it is, that even the events that seem to be little at the time, make for the greatest memories. School trips, specifically to Ecole de neige, Ecole Verte, and Quebec City, hold some of the best memories for me. I remember my tallest classmate riding a tricycle around the common area of the building during our Ecole Verte trip; boys hanging out dorm windows in Quebec City to talk to the girls on the floor above; and "the monster" in the woods at Ecole de Neige. These are some of my favourite memories and the people who helped to create them will always hold a special place in my heart. I really don't think that they have any idea how important they are and that I truly care about what happens to them, even today.
I have come to realize over the years that the people of the past are what have shaped the person that I am today, and for that I am grateful because I really like who I am. So, to all of the people whose paths have crossed with mine, Thank you :)
Thursday, August 16, 2012
Ugh...Yawn
The co-worker that I am currently replacing while she is on holidays can return ANY TIME now!!! I never truly realized just how difficult and involved her job is. I replaced her for a couple of days back in the spring but that was easy, peasy compared to the last few of days. Nothing out of the ordinary in the day of an admin assistant, however, I'm not usually an admin assistant therefore it has been a very challenging week. Things that would take her 5 minutes are taking at least twice that; I have to keep emailing people for help; I haven't had 2 minutes to do my usual work. I absolutely have a new found appreciation for how much she does in a day.
Many people in the office make fun of her office, and I used to be one of them. No more. I understand why her office is usually a mess. You barely manage to get one thing done before you're being asked to do something else. There is absolutely no time to file anything or to get to the extra little things that one might like to do in order to facilitate future activities. I am absolutely in awe of how she manages to do it without looking frazzled!!! She has become an absolute inspiration to me :)
On a different topic...I LOVE my niece!!! Sorry, just had to say it...it's about the only other thought that runs through my head as of late. She is absolutely beautiful and I hate that I don't get to spend more time with her but I know that she will know how much I love her and that I will get to spend enough time with her that she will know me and know that she can always count on me :) ♥
I think that's all for me for today...just had to share that little bit!
Bonsoir :)
Many people in the office make fun of her office, and I used to be one of them. No more. I understand why her office is usually a mess. You barely manage to get one thing done before you're being asked to do something else. There is absolutely no time to file anything or to get to the extra little things that one might like to do in order to facilitate future activities. I am absolutely in awe of how she manages to do it without looking frazzled!!! She has become an absolute inspiration to me :)
On a different topic...I LOVE my niece!!! Sorry, just had to say it...it's about the only other thought that runs through my head as of late. She is absolutely beautiful and I hate that I don't get to spend more time with her but I know that she will know how much I love her and that I will get to spend enough time with her that she will know me and know that she can always count on me :) ♥
I think that's all for me for today...just had to share that little bit!
Bonsoir :)
Saturday, August 11, 2012
Best Saturday EVER!!!
Today, at 4:22 am, my niece came into this world!!! My brother called me at about 4:30 this morning, and when I answered the phone, this elated voice said "Hello Aunt Stephanee"! I have never been more thrilled to be awakened at 4 in the morning :)
Payden Catherine Elizabeth came into this world at 4:22am, a mere 4 hours after her parents and Grandee left for the hospital. As I understand it, my brother stood by his girlfriend's encouraging and comforting her as she gave birth, while my mother actually witnessed her first grand-child being born.
Mother and baby are both doing well. Baby was 7lbs 11.6 oz at birth and 22 inches long. Unfortunately, she seems to have my brother's nose :( I'm really hoping that she grows out of it!
In case you haven't already figured it out, I am extremely excited for my brother and his girlfriend! I am also absolutely THRILLED to be an aunt :) I cannot wait to meet this beautiful little bundle tomorrow :)
One of the best parts of all of this is that I, along with my hubby, was at the cottage when the phone rang this morning. No better place to be (except maybe at my parents place) than one of my favourite places on the planet when I finally got to hear the words that I have been waiting for.
Welcome to the world little lady! I promise that you will always be happy and know that you are VERY, VERY loved ♥
Payden Catherine Elizabeth came into this world at 4:22am, a mere 4 hours after her parents and Grandee left for the hospital. As I understand it, my brother stood by his girlfriend's encouraging and comforting her as she gave birth, while my mother actually witnessed her first grand-child being born.
Mother and baby are both doing well. Baby was 7lbs 11.6 oz at birth and 22 inches long. Unfortunately, she seems to have my brother's nose :( I'm really hoping that she grows out of it!
In case you haven't already figured it out, I am extremely excited for my brother and his girlfriend! I am also absolutely THRILLED to be an aunt :) I cannot wait to meet this beautiful little bundle tomorrow :)
One of the best parts of all of this is that I, along with my hubby, was at the cottage when the phone rang this morning. No better place to be (except maybe at my parents place) than one of my favourite places on the planet when I finally got to hear the words that I have been waiting for.
Welcome to the world little lady! I promise that you will always be happy and know that you are VERY, VERY loved ♥
Thursday, August 9, 2012
Bon Voyage
Today our office had to say goodbye to one of our hardest working co-workers :( Most of my co-workers are only kind of sad about his departure because they have the knowledge that he will be returning in a part-time capacity in a few weeks. I am super sad because I happen to adore this young man and I will no longer be working at the office when he returns. I am wishing this kind soul a safe trip and I do hope that we manage to stay in touch via email and social networking.
With this sad departure, I am struck by the fact that it has only taken a few short weeks for a small group of us to become fairly close. We don't really see each other outside of work, but as a whole, we enjoy each other's company when we are at the office. We are a reasonably sized group and we seem to always manage to gather, without notice, in the "formal dining room" for lunch during which time we chat and laugh and simply enjoy each others company. I know from personal experience that this is not the usual when it comes to large groups of people and I think that it is probably one of my favourite things about our office. I do hope that this little break in the day will be enough to get me through over the course of the next 7 work days while I am replacing our Admin. Assistant....eek!
I think that is about it for me tonight...I am tired and have to go out to buy some decorations and treats for a double retirement party at the office tomorrow! At the rate that we lose people, it's almost amazing that we are able to get any work done :)
By the way...so EXCITED that the women's soccer team won a Bronze medal today!!! I am so proud of them and as always...Proud to be Canadian :)
~ S
With this sad departure, I am struck by the fact that it has only taken a few short weeks for a small group of us to become fairly close. We don't really see each other outside of work, but as a whole, we enjoy each other's company when we are at the office. We are a reasonably sized group and we seem to always manage to gather, without notice, in the "formal dining room" for lunch during which time we chat and laugh and simply enjoy each others company. I know from personal experience that this is not the usual when it comes to large groups of people and I think that it is probably one of my favourite things about our office. I do hope that this little break in the day will be enough to get me through over the course of the next 7 work days while I am replacing our Admin. Assistant....eek!
I think that is about it for me tonight...I am tired and have to go out to buy some decorations and treats for a double retirement party at the office tomorrow! At the rate that we lose people, it's almost amazing that we are able to get any work done :)
By the way...so EXCITED that the women's soccer team won a Bronze medal today!!! I am so proud of them and as always...Proud to be Canadian :)
~ S
Wednesday, August 8, 2012
And here we go!
A friend of mine recently started blogging and at first I couldn't help but wonder why. After reading a couple of her posts I realized just how cathartic it must be to just sit and write (something that we both enjoy). I sort of feel as though I am copying her, but at the same time, I really wanted to give it a try and see if blogging has the same sort of effect on me. Which brings us here tonight.
When I really began to think about starting a blog, I couldn't help but wonder what I would write about, but then I realized that I could write about whatever I wanted because only a few people would be reading what I write and they will be people I know. As I am writing I still don't know what my aim is, I simply know that I want to write and express myself in a different, new to me, manner.
Currently my intention is to write regularly and work my way up to daily dependent on what occurs in my day and how much time I have to spend blogging. Tonight for example, I have the evening to myself because my wonderful husband is at work. Often I would plan an outing with a friend, but tonight I felt that I simply wanted some alone time. This means a little me time including a home pedicure and a nice long shower. Unfortunately there are also dishes that need washing but I think that I can handle it. After the day that I had at work, the dishes will seem simple and meanial. Missing items that require spending hours of searching to no avail are not my idea of fun! Worst part is I have to continue the hunt in the morning. For one of the first times (if not the first time) since I started in my current position, I find myself not wanting to go to work tomorrow...ugh!
On the bright side: I have a neice coming into this world sometime in the next few days; my husband has the weekend off; my best friend has a baby who I can visit to brighten my day; I know that my friends and family are always there for me no matter what!
Sigh! Well, this looks like a great start! I hope that anyone reading this will find my ramblings to be interesting or at the very least not borring :)
Bonsoir!
~ S
When I really began to think about starting a blog, I couldn't help but wonder what I would write about, but then I realized that I could write about whatever I wanted because only a few people would be reading what I write and they will be people I know. As I am writing I still don't know what my aim is, I simply know that I want to write and express myself in a different, new to me, manner.
Currently my intention is to write regularly and work my way up to daily dependent on what occurs in my day and how much time I have to spend blogging. Tonight for example, I have the evening to myself because my wonderful husband is at work. Often I would plan an outing with a friend, but tonight I felt that I simply wanted some alone time. This means a little me time including a home pedicure and a nice long shower. Unfortunately there are also dishes that need washing but I think that I can handle it. After the day that I had at work, the dishes will seem simple and meanial. Missing items that require spending hours of searching to no avail are not my idea of fun! Worst part is I have to continue the hunt in the morning. For one of the first times (if not the first time) since I started in my current position, I find myself not wanting to go to work tomorrow...ugh!
On the bright side: I have a neice coming into this world sometime in the next few days; my husband has the weekend off; my best friend has a baby who I can visit to brighten my day; I know that my friends and family are always there for me no matter what!
Sigh! Well, this looks like a great start! I hope that anyone reading this will find my ramblings to be interesting or at the very least not borring :)
Bonsoir!
~ S
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