Today I had an interview for a position that I REALLY want! I managed to multi-task a half-day of supply teaching along with the interview thanks to the help of a former colleague. I initially was pleased with my interview and even think that I did an okay job with the written question (never my preferred portion) but then I saw the next candidate. It was a lovely lady whom I had the pleasure of working with 2 years ago and about the only person who could completely crush my confidence.
The position in an FSL position and it just so happens that her first language is French. I know that my French abilities are good and I consider myself to be completely bilingual, however, when it comes down to it, I know that she will have had no problem with the French portion of the interview...no grammar mistakes like I tend to make when I am nervous.
I don't want her to not have a position this year, I just don't want her to have THIS job! I love the school and staff so much and I actually feel like I am missing part of me by not being there right now.
In an attempt to endear myself, I spent part of the afternoon with the person who I would be replacing, giving her a hand with a very busy grade 1/2 class.
Like I said, I don't wish the girl who is also up for the job any ill will, I just really want this job! I really don't have much else to look forward to right now and I am actually starting to feel desperate which really sucks. I have been working as a supply teacher for 8 and a half years and I really think that it's my turn to work for a full year!
I'm really sorry to sound all whiny, but sometime soon, something's gotta give!!!
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